{"id":957,"date":"2012-08-29T20:32:07","date_gmt":"2012-08-30T00:32:07","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.ordinarylegacy.com\/word\/?p=957"},"modified":"2012-08-29T20:32:32","modified_gmt":"2012-08-30T00:32:32","slug":"music-and-dancing-in-the-streets","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.ordinarylegacy.com\/word\/2012\/08\/29\/music-and-dancing-in-the-streets\/","title":{"rendered":"Music and Dancing in the Streets!"},"content":{"rendered":"

Written Aug 17, 2012 2:38pm<\/h3>\n
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Music has always had the utmost significance to me, Jay and our boys.\u00a0 I have the distinguished honor of having had a song composed for me by Jay entitled \u201cWanda\u2019s Song\u201d. It is an instrumental and so the words remain unwritten.\u00a0 At one point, Jared suggested that I give it some lyrics and I have considered it.\u00a0 However, the title would need to be changed as it would be Jay\u2019s and my song. I must say, it is one of my greatest treasures! As a guitarist, mostly self taught, Jay played out in coffee houses during college with a friend, Nick, who I have never met.<\/p>\n

During the college years, Jay had very little extra money (in fact probably safe to say \u201cnone\u201d), so he decided we should send audio cassette tapes back and forth as talking on the phone long distance would be expensive.\u00a0 In going through some items, I rediscovered those tapes.\u00a0 Yet another one of my greatest treasures!\u00a0 So, on our wedding anniversary of December 16th, I had a date with my beloved& listened to his voice from so long ago, so young.\u00a0 When both Jared and Christian asked me what I did that day, I told them I had a date with their father.\u00a0 The dead silence on the other end of the phone indicated that they probably thought I\u2019d finally lost it!<\/p>\n

Anyway, there are three sections of those tapes that stand out and touch me to the core.\u00a0 One is that he beautifully professes his love and desire for me.\u00a0 The second is that he has no money and he needs to figure out a way to make money to give me a wonderful life that he feels I deserve.\u00a0 (Thank you sweetheart, you did an amazing job!)\u00a0 And the third is a jam session with Nick of \u201cWanda\u2019s Song\u201d. I also have my song on a CD that Jay & Jared recorded for a Christmas gift to me in 2008.<\/p>\n

Jay was never big on dancing in the beginning of our lives together, although a few drinks could be the catalyst to get him moving.\u00a0 However, as time passed, he became more comfortable in that arena.\u00a0 I will always remember being at an office Christmas party and it was Jay\u2019s idea to get me out on the dance floor.\u00a0 The song was \u201cAll I Want\u201d by Toad the Wet Sprocket and it will always be in my heart.\u00a0 Key phrases are \u201cAll I want is to feel this way, to be this close, to feel the same, allI want is to feel this way, the evening speaks, I feel it say\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n

During Jay\u2019s stay in ICU, my sacred song was \u201cHave a Little Faith in Me\u201d by John Hiatt.\u00a0 The whole song says it all and it is beautiful but the beginning goes like this:<\/p>\n

When the road gets dark, And you can no longer see Just let my love throw a spark, And have a little faith in me And when the tears you cry, Are all you can believe Just give these loving arms a try, And have a little faith in me<\/p>\n

After Jay was out of ICU but still in the hospital, I would hear \u201cWindows Are Rolled Down\u201d by Amos Lee as I drove to and from the hospital.\u00a0 Lyrics that hit me hard are:<\/p>\n

Windows are rolled down, sun is setting high<\/p>\n

Windows are rolled down, I\u2019m fixing to die.<\/p>\n

Windows are rolled down, moon is hanging low<\/p>\n

Windows are rolled down, Think it\u2019s time for me to go<\/p>\n

The day that Jay passed, I was surrounded by some family and friends.\u00a0 I had music television on and found my new anthem after hearing \u201cFill Me Up\u201d by Shawn Colvin.\u00a0 So this was my plea to Jay & God to give me strength to survive this!\u00a0 When I think of home, it is synonymous with Jay.<\/p>\n

Fill me up, fill me up, I\u2019m a long way from home and I don\u2019t have a lot to say<\/p>\n

Fill me up, fill me up, cause you\u2019re all that I\u2019ve got and I\u2019ve traveled a long, long way<\/p>\n

Cheer me up, cheer me up, cause I\u2019m all alone and I\u2019m taking it day by day<\/p>\n

Cheer me up, cheer me up, cause you\u2019re all that I\u2019ve got and I\u2019ve traveled a long, long way<\/p>\n

And I know where you live, I know who you are, so don\u2019t get too close, & don\u2019t go too far<\/p>\n

Don\u2019t get too close, and promise me that you\u2019ll never go too far, never go too far<\/p>\n

Below are snippets of several songs that provide inspiration for me.<\/p>\n

\u201cSomeday\u201d by Rob Thomas<\/p>\n

You can go, you can start all over again<\/p>\n

You could try to find a way to make another day go by<\/p>\n

You can hide, hold all your feelings inside<\/p>\n

You could try to carry on when all you wanna do is cry<\/p>\n

And maybe someday we’ll figure all this out.<\/p>\n

Try to put an end to all our doubt<\/p>\n

And try to find a way to make things better now that<\/p>\n

Maybe someday we’ll live our lives out loud<\/p>\n

We’ll be better off somehow, someday
\n\u201cOne Day You Will\u201d by Lady Antebellum<\/p>\n

You feel like you\u2019re falling backwards. Like you\u2019re slippin\u2019 through the cracks<\/p>\n

Like no one would even notice If you left this town and never came back You walk outside and all you see is rain. You look inside and all you feel is pain<\/p>\n

And you can\u2019t see it now. But down the road the sun is shining<\/p>\n

In every cloud there\u2019s a silver lining, Just keep holding on(Just keep holding on)<\/p>\n

Finally my playlist concludes with \u201cGuardian\u201d.\u00a0 I have had many troublesome days but one day was unbelievably difficult ~ I was the most distraught I have ever been.\u00a0 I went to bed but awoke in the middle of the night with panic and distress.\u00a0 I decided to turn on the TV and when I turned to the music channel, I heard \u201cAll I Want\u201dfollowed by \u201cGuardian\u201d.\u00a0 I don\u2019t think the sign could have been any clearer.\u00a0 So Jay continues to be my guardian and I think I am a full time job for him!<\/p>\n

\u201cGuardian\u201d by Alanis Morissette<\/p>\n

I\u2019ll be your keeper for life as your guardian<\/p>\n

I\u2019ll be your warrior of care your first warden<\/p>\n

I\u2019ll be your angel on call, I\u2019ll be on demand<\/p>\n

The greatest honor of all, as your guardian.<\/p>\n

Music helps me get through the day, through the deafening quiet.\u00a0 I had the opportunity to make it to Musikfest 5 times and quite frankly, I am currently going through withdrawal!!!\u00a0 It was an absolute blast and I was blessed with two very special occasions.\u00a0 Thanks Jan & Greg for treating me to the Huey Lewis\/Joe Cocker concert and Kay & Don for treating me to the Goo Goo Dolls concert! Both were awesome!\u00a0 The wide variety of other artists to choose from was a huge bonus.\u00a0 I stayed in the South Side where the Steel Stacks are located and parts of the street were blocked off.\u00a0 So yes, I was \u201cdancing in the streets\u201d with and without a partner! I have found it very therapeutic and a great form of exercise. Over the last several months, I am getting out dancing almost every Friday evening with Linda & Judy, who I refer to as the dancing queens!<\/p>\n

Last night, a friend hosted a fundraiser for the Levitt Pavilion.\u00a0 Great job, Victor, thanks for including me.\u00a0 It was terrific to see so many people I haven\u2019t seen in a long time and to enjoy the Doo Wop Project.\u00a0 I had the pleasure of a very special dance with James.\u00a0 He is a beautiful 6 month old and his delightful parents left me a steal a dance with him.\u00a0 It was a win for me and win for them.\u00a0 In the midst of our dance I told them that I have a gorgeous 4 month old granddaughter, just lost my husband in September and this is the best dance I\u2019ve had in a long time!\u00a0 It did all of our hearts good!\u00a0 Those experiences are just a small token of what we all need to celebrate in our lives.<\/p>\n

Music evokes so much emotion.\u00a0 I can be crying or rejoicing through song at any given moment but I vow to continue to dance through it all.\u00a0 I know that\u2019s what Jay would want and expect from me!<\/p>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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