{"id":10,"date":"2009-05-24T10:27:14","date_gmt":"2009-05-24T17:27:14","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.2soar.info\/word\/?p=10"},"modified":"2009-05-24T10:27:14","modified_gmt":"2009-05-24T17:27:14","slug":"memorial-day","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.ordinarylegacy.com\/word\/2009\/05\/24\/memorial-day\/","title":{"rendered":"Memorial Day"},"content":{"rendered":"

Today, I am feeling sorry for myself.\u00a0 <\/span>I am having a down and dirty pity party, the likes of which you\u2019ve never seen.\u00a0 <\/span>I got Vertigo last week, last Wednesday after getting home from a very successful business trip.\u00a0 <\/span>I\u2019ve had vertigo before in the form of Meniere\u2019s Disease.\u00a0\u00a0 <\/span>I had it for three years.\u00a0 <\/span>It could be debilitating at times and wreaked havoc with my life.\u00a0 <\/span>I say that with the utmost sarcasm because my life was a train wreck at the time.\u00a0 <\/span>Anyway, this time I called it everything but vertigo.\u00a0 <\/span>I blamed low blood sugar, lack of exercise, not eating blah blah blah.\u00a0 <\/span>In the back of my mind I knew exactly what it was.<\/span><\/p>\n

This is Memorial Day weekend.\u00a0 <\/span>For a select few of us it is a time of more than remembering our war dead.\u00a0 <\/span>Our lives were changed two years ago when a dear friend of ours was struck down with a stroke.\u00a0 <\/span>He was bigger than life and now he is living a simple existence in a wheelchair, with limited speech and a full time aide.\u00a0 <\/span>We love him and we are the keepers of his legacy.\u00a0 <\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

His illness was the beginning of my journey back to life.\u00a0 <\/span>Isn\u2019t it so often true that when something horrible happens some good always comes from it? Today I am suffering terribly wishing that I could turn back the hands of time so that he would be himself again. I know neither I nor the others had anything to do with him falling ill but we all have a what if\u2026<\/span><\/p>\n

That is how I found out I had vertigo.\u00a0 <\/span>Our administrative assistant kicks herself for not throwing him in the car and taking him to the doctor herself so she wasn\u2019t letting me self diagnose.\u00a0 <\/span>Oh no, that was not going to happen again.\u00a0 <\/span>Off I went to the doctor and there it was\u2026vertigo.\u00a0 <\/span>Medication was dispensed and all would be right with the world in two to four weeks if you could stand the side effects of the medication.\u00a0 <\/span>Sometimes the cure is definitely worse than the disease. \u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

But you do know your own body and as soon as I heard vertigo I knew I was in trouble.\u00a0 <\/span>I have become a believer in the law of attraction and I know everything happens for a reason.\u00a0 <\/span>There are several schools of thought on disease but I think everyone now believes pretty strongly in a mind body connection.\u00a0 <\/span>What would be the probable cause of vertigo?\u00a0 <\/span>I avoided looking it up but finally I found out that it is scattered and fragmented thought and a refusal to look.\u00a0 <\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Look at what? Hadn\u2019t I started a new life, moved, and adopted two new rescue dogs with all their issues?\u00a0 <\/span>Hadn\u2019t I just come home from the Cape, the place that rejuvenates me?\u00a0 <\/span>Can you do all that without looking?\u00a0 <\/span>Yes. You can.\u00a0 <\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

What I hadn\u2019t looked at was the series of events that had been my life for the previous twenty years.\u00a0 <\/span>I hadn\u2019t looked at the mental abuse, the loss, the mistakes, the turmoil, the lies, the years passing.\u00a0 <\/span>I had grown old and not even noticed. I had grown fat and not realized what I was feeding.\u00a0 <\/span>I had believed that I was getting what I deserved.<\/span><\/p>\n

But then our friend got sick and we all woke up.\u00a0 <\/span>We all started making changes.\u00a0 <\/span>I separated from my husband of\u00a0 <\/span>years, I moved, I bought all new furniture, I lost\u00a0 <\/span>lbs, I went to work-out class but\u2026I never mourned.\u00a0 <\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

As grateful as I am for all those things, I never let the rest of the things go in a way that honored them and credited them with making me what I am today.\u00a0 <\/span>I was so busy putting it all behind me that I didn\u2019t stop to just look at it and feel it all the way to my core.\u00a0 <\/span>People were so supportive but they were waiting for the other shoe to drop as it had to.\u00a0 <\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

This memorial day I am mourning the war dead, the people in my life who have suffered, the people in my life who are gone, my youth and tomorrow I will be celebrating those same things. <\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Today, I am feeling sorry for myself.\u00a0 I am having a down and dirty pity party, the likes of which you\u2019ve never seen.\u00a0 I got Vertigo last week, last Wednesday after getting home from a very successful business trip.\u00a0 I\u2019ve … Continue reading →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-10","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-in-the-company-of-women-2"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p27hQ5-a","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ordinarylegacy.com\/word\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ordinarylegacy.com\/word\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ordinarylegacy.com\/word\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ordinarylegacy.com\/word\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ordinarylegacy.com\/word\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=10"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.ordinarylegacy.com\/word\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1537,"href":"https:\/\/www.ordinarylegacy.com\/word\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10\/revisions\/1537"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ordinarylegacy.com\/word\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=10"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ordinarylegacy.com\/word\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=10"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ordinarylegacy.com\/word\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=10"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}